Your mother hung herself in the National Theater when she was four months pregnant with your sister who would have been thirteen years old today //
Anonymous asked: about that amis quote.. I gave it to an a-level class recently (they were feeling muddy about writing an essay on suicide stats). But then they asked where I got it from: + i have searched, but I can still say, only here. so: where did you get it from? I don't like to disappoint the eager adolescents.
because you asked this on anon, and i’ve slept since then or whenever, i don’t really know what you’re talking about. the best i can do is this: his novel ‘Night Train,’ is about suicide, or at least more ostensibly about suicide than others that come to mind. it is a topic which appears throughout his work - the subtitle for Money, probably his most well known novel, being ‘A Suicide Note.’ perhaps this is the quote you’re talking about?
It used to be said, not so long ago, that every suicide gave Satan special pleasure. I don’t think that’s true—unless it isn’t true either that the Devil is a gentleman. If the Devil has no class at all, then okay, I agree: He gets a bang out of suicide. Because suicide is a mess. As a subject for study, suicide is perhaps uniquely incoherent. And the act itself is without shape and without form. The human project implodes, contorts inward—shameful, infantile, writhing, gesturing. It’s a mess in there.
Night Train - Martin Amis
Anonymous asked: hello, have you forgotten about me ? (proust is a master)
i think i might have, yeah. in my defense though, you all look alike *larry david contrite shoulder-bunch
Anonymous asked: when was the last time you thought you loved someone?
you mean romantically? christ, a long long time ago, perhaps too long. i guess i’m too lazy for that stuff. it really takes it out of you. i remember when I was in my late teens and early twenties, I felt like I fell in love around fifteen times a day. a slut for love. I suppose we all feel like that at that age. I know when it was, when i last loved someone. Anna Karenina. does that count?